Dear Readers,
Things have not been going ideally with food choices this week. It feels like I have been eating everything that isn't tied down, which I think is partially true and partially exaggerated. I can only assume that there is some un-addressed inner turbulence that is now manifesting outwardly. Maybe I am afraid of not finding a job. Maybe I'm stressed that I don't know where I will be come July. Maybe I am lonely. Maybe I am tired of being my own worst enemy. Whatever the case, it would be best to do something besides writing to feel whatever it is that food has been shielding me from. Also, it would be good for me to eat without distractions. I think I mentioned this before, but I want to cease eating past about 9 o'clock at night. I've been drinking a goodly amount of water, so you know, I'll take my props on that one. I would like to keep it up.
Inspired by the run-away train that has been my eating this week, I've considered going back to Weight Watchers. I didn't go very far with it when I was in Laffy and have been, consequently, dubious as per my successfully using the program this go 'round. I was thinking, though, that I am in a different place now and I shouldn't let those "old tracks" stop me. Will let you know.
The not watching shows on the Internet before working out has been a fucking bust, BUT . . . I've been working out anyway!! Yeeuh! I've already been to Pilates twice this week and I'm going to Pilates and Yoga tonight. I have decided to put off jogging for now until my foot/ankle is feeling more up to it . . . I don't want to push it and cause worse or permanent damage. Then I'd never be able to run, which would be a tragedy! I've dreamed basically my entire life of being a runner and it is a long-term goal of mine to run in a half- (and eventually full) marathon. I'm also toying with the idea of triathlons, but I really hate swimming. That's not true. What little swimming I've done has actually been kind of awesome. I hate bathing suits. Which is also why I "hate" water-related activities and the beach. Sad really, but I know it's not going to be that way for the rest of my life.
Alright, I need to get myself together to make it out the door in time for my classes. Imma holla at y'all soon.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
update
Last week went pretty well. I feel overall pretty good about my food choices, as well as the amount of exercise I got.
One of my goals was to continue with the couch to 5k training plan, which would have had me running 3 times last week. I did not achieve this particular goal; however, I did attempt to go for a jog one day last week and my right ankle, which has been giving me some trouble lately, was not happy at all. I was however, jogging faster than I normally do and I think that might have everything to do with my ankle screaming out for us to stop. I will set the goal to take up the couch to 5k cause again this week, only keeping in mind to keep the pace WAY down. If my ankle is still unhappy, then I think I will have to have it looked at . . . :(
My other exercise goal was to practice yoga and pilates once, which I also did not accomplish . . . I did, however, practice yoga twice, so I'm going to tick this goal off as a success. I went to Power Yoga on Saturday and it was EXCELLENT. Our teacher was a specimen of human strength and beauty. He was also very hands-on and did a lot of correcting, which is a wonderful opportunity for us as students. I would like to go back this Saturday. I will keep this exercise goal as is for this week, because I know I can easily and happily accomplish it.
My nutrition goals for this week are also about the same: lots of fruits and veggies and lean protein and less breads and refined carbohydrates.
One of my goals was to continue with the couch to 5k training plan, which would have had me running 3 times last week. I did not achieve this particular goal; however, I did attempt to go for a jog one day last week and my right ankle, which has been giving me some trouble lately, was not happy at all. I was however, jogging faster than I normally do and I think that might have everything to do with my ankle screaming out for us to stop. I will set the goal to take up the couch to 5k cause again this week, only keeping in mind to keep the pace WAY down. If my ankle is still unhappy, then I think I will have to have it looked at . . . :(
My other exercise goal was to practice yoga and pilates once, which I also did not accomplish . . . I did, however, practice yoga twice, so I'm going to tick this goal off as a success. I went to Power Yoga on Saturday and it was EXCELLENT. Our teacher was a specimen of human strength and beauty. He was also very hands-on and did a lot of correcting, which is a wonderful opportunity for us as students. I would like to go back this Saturday. I will keep this exercise goal as is for this week, because I know I can easily and happily accomplish it.
My nutrition goals for this week are also about the same: lots of fruits and veggies and lean protein and less breads and refined carbohydrates.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
10 day experiment in self acceptance, day 10
"Lesson: 'This place where you are right now. God circled on a map for you.' — Hafiz
The internal obstacles to being yourself are the same as the obstacles to living fully in the world. You negate yourself by telling yourself that your presence doesn't really matter; nobody wants to hear what you have to say; your vote doesn't really make a difference; and other people are somehow more important than you.
Self-acceptance deeply affirms your true essence, wishing you well in every situation you may find yourself. By giving yourself permission to stand in your truth, you can show up more fully in your life. You can take the risk of being you in order to find out who that really is. Self-acceptance allows you to be just yourself. Not your self-image, but the original you that came to be with us here on earth.
Exercise: Self-acceptance is the start of something wonderful. I describe it as a revelation because you can't possibly know beforehand how good your life will get once you start to experience a deep love for yourself, maybe even for the first time. This deep love reveals a perfect wholeness that cannot be destroyed by any experience in this world.
Rejoice in this mantra: 'I am here.' The more present you are, the more whole you feel inside. Notice how wonderful it feels to be deeply present in your body and in your life. With self-acceptance, you feel at home in your body, an open road appears before you, and a new journey begins."
The internal obstacles to being yourself are the same as the obstacles to living fully in the world. You negate yourself by telling yourself that your presence doesn't really matter; nobody wants to hear what you have to say; your vote doesn't really make a difference; and other people are somehow more important than you.
Self-acceptance deeply affirms your true essence, wishing you well in every situation you may find yourself. By giving yourself permission to stand in your truth, you can show up more fully in your life. You can take the risk of being you in order to find out who that really is. Self-acceptance allows you to be just yourself. Not your self-image, but the original you that came to be with us here on earth.
Exercise: Self-acceptance is the start of something wonderful. I describe it as a revelation because you can't possibly know beforehand how good your life will get once you start to experience a deep love for yourself, maybe even for the first time. This deep love reveals a perfect wholeness that cannot be destroyed by any experience in this world.
Rejoice in this mantra: 'I am here.' The more present you are, the more whole you feel inside. Notice how wonderful it feels to be deeply present in your body and in your life. With self-acceptance, you feel at home in your body, an open road appears before you, and a new journey begins."
10 day experiment in self acceptance, day 9
"Self-acceptance gives you a natural confidence that helps you to cultivate your God-given talents and express the bigness of your heart. Paradoxically, the more you practice your self-acceptance, the less your life is "all about me" and the more you open your heart to the world.
Identify five of your most natural strengths and talents. Be honest. Be specific. Don't shrink. Ask a friend for some help if you want some objectivity. Next, score from zero to 100 percent, how much you are using each of these in your life right now. Then, imagine how good your life could get if you committed to these innate strengths and talents more fully."
5 natural strengths/talents:
1) I have a good ear. This talent best applied to learning foreign languages and singing. Often, if I hear a sound -- whether it be a spoken word or a sung chorus -- I just know how to reproduce it. It is also often the case that I can reproduce a sound pretty close, if not spot on, to the original. For instance, one of my favorite party tricks is doing impersonations.
I would say that I am using this talent close to full capacity, considering I am living in Germany and speaking German on a daily basis. However, I'd like to be singing more.
2) I am very good with people. I am open, warm and friendly. I make acquaintances easily and hold on to friends for life, when appropriate. I usually am good at reading people and can get sense of a person's character; though, I do misjudge and, accordingly, always give people a second chance.
I think I am using this talent at 80-90% of its full potential.
If I committed to this innate strength, there is really no telling how it might impact my life. I am interested to find out.
3) I am funny. I love to laugh and I love to make other people laugh and I am usually pretty good at at least getting a chuckle or two out of other people.
Considering I am a big ham-bone, I don't see how it's possible that I am not using this talent at 100% of its full potential.
4) I am organized. I have an eye for detail. I am meticulous to a fault . . . when working on a team, I am the guy who dots the i's and crosses the t's. I may not be fast, but I take pride in leaving no detail unattended. Not only is my work usually very detailed, but it also is visually appealing, as I strongly believe that a person's work represents them.
I think I am using this talent at 75-85% of its full potential.
I think it is difficult for me to use this strength to its utmost, as my life is not yet settled. I yearn for it, though. I ache for a full-time job, an apartment/house of my own and someone to share it all with . . . I look forward to nesting, which I think is just long-term organizing.
5) I have a dogged, fighting spirit. I might fall down, my spirits may flag, I always ALWAYS get back up.
I am using this talent at 65-75% of its full potential.
When this talent is operating at full capacity, so I am. I am determined to achieve my goals and realize as close to my full potential as possible.
Identify five of your most natural strengths and talents. Be honest. Be specific. Don't shrink. Ask a friend for some help if you want some objectivity. Next, score from zero to 100 percent, how much you are using each of these in your life right now. Then, imagine how good your life could get if you committed to these innate strengths and talents more fully."
5 natural strengths/talents:
1) I have a good ear. This talent best applied to learning foreign languages and singing. Often, if I hear a sound -- whether it be a spoken word or a sung chorus -- I just know how to reproduce it. It is also often the case that I can reproduce a sound pretty close, if not spot on, to the original. For instance, one of my favorite party tricks is doing impersonations.
I would say that I am using this talent close to full capacity, considering I am living in Germany and speaking German on a daily basis. However, I'd like to be singing more.
2) I am very good with people. I am open, warm and friendly. I make acquaintances easily and hold on to friends for life, when appropriate. I usually am good at reading people and can get sense of a person's character; though, I do misjudge and, accordingly, always give people a second chance.
I think I am using this talent at 80-90% of its full potential.
If I committed to this innate strength, there is really no telling how it might impact my life. I am interested to find out.
3) I am funny. I love to laugh and I love to make other people laugh and I am usually pretty good at at least getting a chuckle or two out of other people.
Considering I am a big ham-bone, I don't see how it's possible that I am not using this talent at 100% of its full potential.
4) I am organized. I have an eye for detail. I am meticulous to a fault . . . when working on a team, I am the guy who dots the i's and crosses the t's. I may not be fast, but I take pride in leaving no detail unattended. Not only is my work usually very detailed, but it also is visually appealing, as I strongly believe that a person's work represents them.
I think I am using this talent at 75-85% of its full potential.
I think it is difficult for me to use this strength to its utmost, as my life is not yet settled. I yearn for it, though. I ache for a full-time job, an apartment/house of my own and someone to share it all with . . . I look forward to nesting, which I think is just long-term organizing.
5) I have a dogged, fighting spirit. I might fall down, my spirits may flag, I always ALWAYS get back up.
I am using this talent at 65-75% of its full potential.
When this talent is operating at full capacity, so I am. I am determined to achieve my goals and realize as close to my full potential as possible.
small changes
I've just thought of a small change that I can make, that might amount to big changes:
Since I've been allowing the Internet to get in the way of being productive, I have decided that on the days that I REALLY really want to get in a workout, I will only check my e-mail. I will not allow myself to watch shows online until after I've exercised. That way, it will be a reward instead of an obstacle.
Also, the dietary changes I want to make are: no eating 2 hours before bed time.
More later on updates . . .
Since I've been allowing the Internet to get in the way of being productive, I have decided that on the days that I REALLY really want to get in a workout, I will only check my e-mail. I will not allow myself to watch shows online until after I've exercised. That way, it will be a reward instead of an obstacle.
Also, the dietary changes I want to make are: no eating 2 hours before bed time.
More later on updates . . .
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
10 day experiment in self acceptance, day 8
The Latin for the word "accept" is "acceptare," which means "to receive, willingly." The more you accept yourself, the better you become at receiving. Live with this thought today: "Happiness is here, because I am here." Another great affirmation is: "Happiness is where I am."
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
10 day experiment in self acceptance, day 7
The more you accept yourself, the more you trust that life doesn't just happen to you; it happens for you.
Decide to trust in yourself today. Commit 100 percent of your trust to this and see what happens.
Decide to trust in yourself today. Commit 100 percent of your trust to this and see what happens.
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